So, we have a week left. The stress is becoming increasingly unbearable for many reasons. (I'm not really sure if everyone is feeling this or if it's just me- PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF IT'S EVERYONE)

So here's my situation. And yes, I realize that several of these problems could have been avoided with the proper time management- that is not my forte. So my situation, it's now uhh Thursday at 3am. I've got mono, but not the symptoms anymore. (Maybe waking up in six hours will help them kick in?)

I've opted not to go to prom- too many graduation parties and studying to do. I would like to go but, wasted money/wasted time- not feeling it. I still have no clue how to go about this symposium thing. Everyone I talk to says "yeah, it's easy just talk about your Walkabout and stuff blah blah blah"... I wish it could be that simple every time I sit down to jot down my thoughts.

But yeah, it's Thursday and I've got until Tuesday to do that study for/catch up on Psychology that I've missed since I've been gone. I really wish I would have taken an Incomplete, but that means months of wasted hours and THAT MAKES ME SICK.

On top of that I've got personal things that would be nice to enjoy because well, I won't be able to enjoy them in a week or so.

So. I've got a few choices:
1. Continue to sit here and stress out about things while calling and bothering friends that are already enjoying summertime bliss
2. Give up and enjoy senioritis at it's finest
3. Find motivation in something...
4. Wait until my spleen explodes

Oh, hey and plus my summer dream job at Oakstone has basically gone down the drain because of mono.

I'M GOING TO SCREAM

So I've got mono. The last few weeks of school. I'm not quote sure of how to go about doing all of these things.

So I've made a bit of headway recently. I'm still translating everything into Spanish in my head, but that's alright. (I'm scared to death that I've lost my ability to speak Spanish.)

I realized that it's probably a good thing that I don't have an internship right now because I've realized how massive my symposium presentation is going to be. It kind of baffles me. So many stories, so many pictures. It may take a while for all of them to surface- I really don't want to miss anything.

But at least I have the whole college thing out of the way. I'm going to Otterbein next fall, for sure.

Anyways, I stopped by Oakstone the other day to pick up a summer job application and I swung by my old room to see everyone. And there they were, just as I had left them: sitting in their miniature chairs around the Promethean during circle- Brady throwing a fit, Sidney screaming and rolling on the ground in sad spot, and Chase walking around mocking the teachers and talking to "Tyrone". But the most amazing thing happened, when I opened the door, Jonathon (my buddy) looked up, walked over to me and hugged my leg. I was in shock first off because he'd grown about 4 inches since January and secondly because he normally doesn't respond to anyone. But he hugged me. And the room got kind of quite and Megan (an aid I worked with) looked at me and said "Oh my god, Sam. We need you back."

But I can't get a hold of the only person that can bring me back. I couldn't do anything but hug him and leave with tears welling and ball in the back of my throat.

This is Jonathon (photos I took last December)


And Brady (also from last December)


They're all so beautiful.

My week:
Tuesday and Thursday class at CSCC.
Thursday morning seminar.
Random things the parentals give me to do.
Study.
Sleep.

(I feel like a bum. I should have continued to travel the world.)

Anywho...

Waiting for reply from: Oakstone Academy
I plan on stopping in Monday morning, apparently things are hectic and I'd like to be persistent; I miss my place there.

If that falls through:
Clintonville Academy (?)
Cambodian something or other, but it sounds intriguing.

Thinking about Spain: 24/7

Next question: Should I just get a job?

So my timing coming home was probably a bit off. I had to wait until after Oakstone's spring break to call them.

And I just got a hold of my mentor there today.

Things aren't really looking up for now.